There is no difference between seeking and not seeking. If you are “still seeking” (as we put it when we refer to our memory and project imaginary stories into the future), it’s okay, because if at some point you find yourself not seeking, you will notice that nothing changed.

There was once, in an occasional flurry of thought, the concept of a seeking person here. The flurry of thought would arise and subside. When I was distracted, the whole idea of seeking was forgotten, and had to be remembered again. And now, in an occasional flurry of thought, there is the concept of a non-seeking person. When I am distracted, I forget all about that and it has to be remembered again. I am neither, and never was. Nothing changed.

How could I be something that arises in a flurry, is forgotten when I am distracted, and then has to be re-remembered? Surely I am something more substantial than that. Where am I, when I am distracted by watching a movie? When the movie is over, then I wait for a flurry of thought to inform me if I am seeking or not seeking. Before the remembering, which am I?

Maybe you think that once remembered, you cannot divorce yourself from that concept of the seeking, suffering self, as if the remembering is where life takes place. Do you think the remembering is where life takes place? If you do, just take a look at that. Does it? Does your life take place in the memory of your past? Does it take place in the imagining of your future?

Or does your life take place in the immediate, freshly-arising present, which always arrives as a clean slate, with neither past nor future attached?

Noticed in awareness, there is memory (past), there is imagination (future), and there is that which is neither. What is it that is neither? It is simply an empty “right now” of awareness in which neither past nor future have imposed themselves. It is sometimes referred to as “the space between thoughts.” What’s there? Nothing? Everything? A seeker? No seeker? A problem? Look and see.

There is no difference in the space between thoughts for the seeker, and the space between thoughts for the non-seeker. In the space before it is remembered which one you are, you are neither. It’s not that I was a seeker once, but am not a seeker now; I am always neither, and I have always been neither. Nothing changed.

I don’t know anything at all about myself. I don’t know if I am a seeker or not, because that only resides in a passing thought. All I know about myself is that I do not change. Nothing ever changes in what I am. A flurry of thought does not change anything.

And so go ahead and relax into seeking. It’s fine. You won’t be frozen there forever, nor will relaxing make it impossible to get out of seeking. All of that is just mind activity, which has no power to do anything. Just now, you are neither seeker nor non-seeker, and that is always true.

In the immediate, freshly-arising present, you can let it all go. Breathe a deep sigh of relief. Every moment, there is no content, no you, no world. There is the present, empty, fresh moment. And another. And another. All content, all definition of your “self” is non-existent now. You are safe to let it all go. No harm will come to you from letting go of all thought of who you are, right now. Even the role of “seeker” melts away, and is not attached to. It’s gone, right now. It never existed. It cannot be found.

This is what lies between thoughts. No seeking one, no realized one. No difference.

In 2005, tired of seeking, Annette began looking into the false assumptions that fuel the spiritual search and keep it going indefinitely. With the help of Bob Adamson, John Wheeler, and Stephen Wingate, she dismantled every illusion that there is something to seek. Annette lives in Mill Valley, California, and has been sharing clear pointers with others since 2005. Her website is www.whatneverchanges.com.